Well, I’m at my first day back at a “office” job, and I miss the boy already. I kinda have this dejavu feeling like I’m starting my first day of kindergarten or something. You know, life is changing — known become unknown. Really weird.
Actually, I started missing him last night while he was sleeping. This morning, for perhaps the first time ever, I sprang out of bed, just to see him. No, it was DEFINITELY the first time ever.
And, he didn’t make it easy. He’s been trucking around lately, getting into everything and falling down. 99% he falls well. This morning? Bonk, head first. I actually don’t think that he’s ever taken a header walking. Fortunately, I was able to come to the rescue (what are dads for?) and stop the water works.
Unfortunately, the water works didn’t end there. H has recently been all about mom. She leaves, he cries. Me, well, not so much. Until today. It was like he knew that I was leaving for the day. I gave him a kiss on the head and he started to scream and grab for me! It was AWFUL. Not ashamed to admit a shed a tear going out the door.
Boy, do I miss him!
Cameron says:
November 28th, 2005 at 9:32 am
Lucas is cutting a molar, he’s super sensitive, there’s ice all over the sidewalks, so he couldn’t walk straight, and when I dropped him off at the daycare he was fine, but I still felt like someone had kicked me in the nuts.
Jon says:
November 28th, 2005 at 7:56 pm
I totally feel your pain. It’s so hard to leave home each morning for work. Before I leave I sneak into the baby’s room and just stare at her for a few minutes, and it breaks my heart to know that I’m going to miss SOOO much during the day.
But, when I get home, she is all smiles to see me or at least that’s how it seems…so that’s all that matters.
Matthew says:
November 28th, 2005 at 10:57 pm
I had to leave the twins after 3 weeks but the past five weeks I’ve been home and had a chance to really bond with them. On Monday I take them to daycare for the first time. I’m tearing up just thinking about it.
melissa says:
November 30th, 2005 at 2:04 am
I had separation anxiety both times I went back to work after having my babies (just two, mind you). I miss their yummy sweet smell most of all.
Dutch says:
November 30th, 2005 at 1:21 pm
and it doesn’t get any easier. the choking up gets replaced with the feeling that you are missing out on his best hours. . .which for me has been affecting my professional life and work I don’t know how much longer I can do it.
all that aside, at least you feel this way. what I don’t understand are the guys who stay at the office extra long just to get away from their wives and kids.
Cameron says:
December 1st, 2005 at 9:09 am
Dutch, nor do I. They are probably the same guys who say “yeah, I’m baby sitting the kids today”.